While everyone is getting on with there lives and making there new years resolutions sometimes we forget that there are others out there in need. I know it is very hard to think about it when you have finally gotten yourself "UP" and we don't want to bring ourselves on a "Downer" by thinking about the sad stuff in life. But today I wish to give Kate a"Love Bomb".
Who is Kate? Well" Today" I joined a group of artist and others called WILD SISTER! Wild sister is also a magazine, and a bunch of other artist etc. supporting one another.. Funny if you know me personaly because thats what I am considered in my family of 2 brothers and 8 sisters. Yes, I'm the wild one!
But enough about me, I was reading the newsletters on the Wild sister RSS and I found this articleand found this sad story. Love for Kate. The tale of depression. For so many of us its something we may struggle with silently. This is why I wanted to share a bit of my story with Kate. And ask my readers to do the same. Thank you.
Dear Kate, I am sorry to hear about your sorrow today. I like many to can be depressed and suffer from depression. Today, I came to this website on accident. I was searching for my class I have been so excited about. A class called" life book the celebration of you." I am taking this class because I have been so down and ready myself to take my own life. I couldn't afford to take this class.But I used up the last of my credit on my credit cards that are all overdue. But I thought I couldn't afford NOT to take the class. I am so behind in my rent,( 8,000.00) most of my credit cards are cut off, my ex ows me a lot of money and he just wont pay so I end up on the streets? Not fair. Thank god my landlord was an angel, but this month is the end of that. I got a letter from her, and one from the I.R.S. owing 25,000. Kind of a bummer huh? Well we keep trying to struggle. I have a great boyfriend who has stood by me for 7 years. We started dating in Oct.2004, and on Dec. 28th 2004 (his birthday) he took me to the hospital for a biopsy. Fun way to spend a birthday with a girl you hardly know. Yes, I was diagnosed with Adenoid Cystic Carcinoma. a.c.c.Rare cancer that is terminal, Burt slow grown. I had surgery, Cut from ear to ear under my neck, Removed 1/3 of my tongue (which makes me talk like a drunk) 28 lymph nodes. And they gave me 3 yrs. to live. I told my b.f. to go on with his life. He is 22 years younger than me. and a good looking , sweet, handsome guy. He stayed. Has gone to every appt. with me. Held my hair back while I got sick from radiation, I could go on How kaiser really screwed me out of my life, and 70,000.but that's another chapter.
Recintly we have been trying to catch up and Jason got laid of on his birthday! Of course I can't tell my landlord, She will be so upset! And its hard not to. She lives 6 houses down.. Now, this guys luck is really not so good to say the least! When he was 9 months old his mom died. When he was 3 his step mom left him on the corner of Hollywood Blvd. and Vine. His uncle picked him up and when he was 17 his uncle shot himself in the head. And we think we have problems??? So anyway Kate, The only reason I don't take my life is because I am so worried it will be worse in the next life. And I try and remember those days that I just loved life and thanked God. Also the days that I was grateful I didnt take my life because something greater happened. Like meeting Jason, or a great art class or ? I really try not to. And nobody really knows this about me. How I really suffer inside. They just say things like" Wow you look so great! You would never know you have cancer!" or "can you believe how you have outlived what the Drs. timeline gave you?" and I think (Yea, whats up with that! when am I going to be out of here!) its to hard to live. I think that all the time. Its so hard not to Kate, I know. Hearing my problems don't make you feel any better I know. Big deal right? Well I am telling you to please wait for one more day. (listen to me,I dont want one more day because I just see myself on the streets,I know,but I go on.) and if I can do it please try to do it. I will have a contest with you, if you do it,I will. Live one more day,Kate. O.K.? This is going to be my first life class moto ! Wow Kate,see what you did for me? You gave me an idea for my painting today,(if I don't get distracted anymore)haha. And my painting is going to be called Live one more day, for Kate! Thank you Kate,Love and hugs, Sheshe(Victoria)
P.S.I failed to mention I havent been able to eat for 7 years. Since my surgery! Yet I still need to cook. It is soooo hard. Even to smell the food. Makes me so sad not to be able to eat it.
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